mix of emotions for this day.

love-for perry. He is adorable and makes my heart melt. lol. "bye love" (:
annoyance-for my feekin mother. She boggles my brain so darn much, I cant figure her out, which is totally bad considerin I have been in the same freaking house with her for 16 yrs! I dont get it. Plus the fight that she had with my father was so needed but dumb.
pain-for my father. He lets the things happen and I really believe that he knows that it is happening and he def isnt doin a thing about it. I kinda wish that my parents would divorce already. But you didnt hear that from me.
---I kinda honestly believe that they still do love each other. They have to. But I dont see why mom has to be that way. She cant have the best of both worlds,then again, i guess she can because her husband happens to be my father! hm. I do not want my parents to be how i will end up at all when i grow up! And I am glad that they dont read this. Mom has kinda invaded facebook, so i can talk about it on there.
Abandonment-because of my brother. He ditched for a friend and left me to be with the 'happy couple' that we call our parents. . . . . . . . . . .
Frustrated-with richard. Because he wont tell me what carl said.
Happiness-for melissa. She told me she was having a blast at prom so I was happy for her.(:
Jealousy- toward the people at prom,Kathy mostly. Because I was not there. I guess its whatever,I kinda just wished kathy would have worked out. but half of me is glad that I didnt have to worry about it at all.. I have my senior yr to make prom freaking amazing!
There was probably more but I dont really care that much...

The last like 4 hours of the day, I went up and down sooo much it was freakin ridiculous! I really just wanted to melt into my bed and never speak another word to anyone. Blah!

This winding down thing that i do in my room is good, so i dont think I will harm anyone. (:

talent show was lame for me.

I kinda horribly sucked it up at the talent show today.
didnt get my microphone passed to me, so i freaked out an didnt remember the words.
Blah!
I got off stage and cried...hm

WOO!

I am gonna go make me a shrek!!
(:
ps. talent show is today, i am beyonce!hahaha.

phone game

i am really good at this game on my phone.
i wanna beat it.lol
and i want a new phone! (:
but i guess its all good!

new friend

I dont want to complain about my life at all to this new friend that i made.
I dont want him to know what anything about me except the basics,unless he wants to know more, but I will try not to complain about my life to him,at all.
If i can ever have a full conversation with him then I can get to know him,but I dont know when or if that will actually happen.lol.
I did add him on facebook,and myspace.(:
He thinks I am a cutie.:)
I probably jinxed it by talkin about it,but still.

up to date

I am not divorced, just separated...
still have a fiancee.
and a boyfriend...that i added on facebook recently! (:

and even though she doesnt like me sayin it like this, it is what happened.
a friend and i broke up, well actually we are just on a break...i guess.

.....times!

i always have fun with melissa,
safe,cozy,funny,flirty,happy times just hanging out with random people and doing random things!!
(:

oh yeah!!!!!?

Kathy knows that he is kathy...
I told him.

lame naps

i did take a nap, and it was a rather long one..../:
sad day,poo.
I did have a lame day yesterday, until i started talkin to a new friend.
and i watched aladdin! and church!
(: Woop! Woop!

radically-mellow

i hate that i have a class kinda next to his on these days, because he is what i write about,which makes me seem like a stalking creeper!?
haha. But i only am a little bit, so yeah...
And another thing, I dont like geometry because it requires u to think logically and i am not a logical thinker! UGH...I dont like it and i am glad that i only have 10 more lessons. blah.
We have no school on friday!?!?! (:

Yesterday, was radical. I just had a mellowed out day. Wish jennifer could have come but i guess its cool that she didnt, :P
I was a cute poster child for a rebel skater chick yesterday!!
i wished someone would have been there with a camera,i was hott!
lol,
I also got my choir tour shirt yesterday and got stamps to send my choir tour stuff away. (:
I kinda wanna take a nap when i get home today, But not a long one...
k? k! COOL!!!! ha.

haha.yeah!

its friday, and i dont kno what i am doing this weekend!
lol,
but today, i think ima clean the house a lot so that i can suck up alittle before i kno what i am doing...haha
I kinda wanna hangout with jenni,but i doubt that will happen,sadly.
i came to a realization, that my husband isnt coming back to school next year so that we could be together! (; jk. but yupp!
Oh and my boyfriend has a girlfriend.
But i am sure my fiancee is still mine. lol.
I am such a creepy skank.lol,yupp!!
I should probably go look up pics of destiny's child, because thats who we are gonna be for the talent show. haha. Legends! Woo!!
k,guess ima go do that.

yeah..OH MY GOODNESS!!!!

So as I was walkin up the stairs to this class this morning,
something of super importance came into my thoughts...
IMA BE A SENIOR NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!!
and I am kinda excited about it.
I am gonna make senior year rather exciting for myself,because it needs to be or i will go Crazy! lol.
But duuuude, I cant wait till the seniors graduate this year, cuz then its only 2 more weeks and a summer break then I will be a SENIOR!!
Guard tryouts are today so that might have brought on the thought of my senior-ness.
I am gonna be the only senior on the guard, I kinda dont care who will hate me, as long as we arent as 'sucky' as last fall. it wasnt that bad but it coulda been better, so yeah...
I am soooo pumped!
Maybe to much, I need to keep my jr friends so that I can go to prom with them. plus i will def need a date, i dont wanna go with out a date actually.
WOOOOOOOT!!! My senior year is so gonna Rule!!!
Hopefully!!! (: AHhhhh....

maybe...

good day?
gonna perform at reed ms today!
(:

hmph.

nevermind, my husband isnt here....
Hmph.
I am beginning to think he doesnt like me!
:/

another laid back day!(:

Today, is gonna be a good day!
I think........ . . . .

Even though i woke up at 7:35 and didnt leave the house til like 7:52, I got to school on time and look rather adorable today. and later I am suppose to go with leah, and jennifer,and melissa and kathy to take their senior pics...kinda late but it still works!
Anyways, I hope thats fun and that it works out..If so, then today promises to be a good day, especically because....
MY HUSBAND IS HERE!!!! (:

jk, but he really is.
ha.

good,pretty good!

Yesterday was a good day,
nothing big has happened at all.
And i think i am ok with that... (:
We performed at pv yesterday and that was fun because i miss middle school. lol.
I saw everyone from there and i kinda missed them.
Only one person said something about my lip ring..haha,mrs.henne!

But today should be fun too.
Just because its friday, and i am going to tennebrae.
And its artwalk...woo!
I think i might go there after tennebrae. If I can.?!

But there is a sad thing about today,my husband isnt at school,lol. Good thing my outfit didnt work out for today, because I was gonna be adorable for that class but I guess that is what happens when you try and impress someone that shouldnt matter.lol.

Ok,bye now....