Stop it!

my brother fainted yesterday.
He needs to stop that. Its scareing the crap outta me.

yup,soo

this weekend wasnt as exciting as i wanted it to be. but oh well, i had fun while it was happening,sorta. hahaha.
I think im wrapped up in the wrong things.
Christmas is in this month.
hmm.

hum.

I thinks me likes him,but i cant/wont do anything about it. ugh!
Cool. Cool.
No-shave-november was good. ready to shave!!!!! :P
I know that is disgusting but Hush it!
...Ima go shave.

tgb

duuuuude! Thanksgiving break! woot! woot!
One more class and i am free,thats good to think about!? ha
Sad note,i wont be able to see jordan all break.
i will get to see tyler probably,and megan and tylia are coming into town so thats exciting as well! :P
I think i have to clean,no fun. hmph.

well then...

oh dear.
I think im broke. I like all the wrong guys,i think the weirdest things are attractive. I dont know what s broke inside me but there has got to be something wrong...because i dont care what others say,i like what i like! :P

our month of october

The month of October has come to an end....ugh!
It was the best Halloween ever!!!! Let me tell ya. (:
I didnt really do anything big. just hungout at the Hotel of Terror.
They had people pulling the hearse with hooks in their back,and the spooks were funny,and it was just loads of fun! ;)
woot! woot!
and this month has been good too.
no shave november is sucky cuz i wanna shave! hehe.
guard tryouts are this week. Woot for winterguard!!

heheOctober!

hey! So Its like the middle of October and I love this month!! Every saturday i have spent the evening with a man. at the hotel of terror and that has been fun!! hehe. I do love this month!! I am sure that it is hit on alanna month,and i might be ok with that. well im starting to get ok with it. hehe. band is doing good. and quarter is over after tomorrow so the stress is almost gone. but im hungry now,so ima go.
oh,oh,oh. i gave blood yesterday. have figured out that I like pain. which is probably why i am attracted to certain guys because they will hurt me. And i dont know what i am doing for Halloween. hmm. lol

one of the bestest.(:

sooo yesterday was FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!
my day started with a long band practice. we got alot done,I am still scared for the competition tomorrow because I dont feel that we are clean all of the time that we should be. I mean we are def standing still for a whole song and they arent that clean on that song. but hopefully we will clean up. God willing! Ha,but after the practice we had the homecoming assembly,that was a fun time. Mariah and I had our face painted and we were dancing around and being random and fun. The only downfall to the assembly was the stupid dance team that jacked half of their dance from Step Up 2. I was a tad bit bitter about that. But oh well. ha. After the assembly,I had 1st lunch and then I went to the zoo with the class that I tutor for A+. Tyler was suppose to go with us,but he didnt. Micheal did. Him and I walked the zoo and he bought me a sno cone. I wasnt complaining because he is good to look at. haha. When we went back to the school,we just hungout in her classroom and watched tv. Micheal fell asleep. lol. Then I came home and I read my book outside in the fantastic weather for a long time. Then mom came home,I ate pizza and then went to hangout with Paxton. Her and I went to Kelly's house,and like always I was the third wheel. But it was ok because when I dropped her off I went to Tyler's house and we talked for a little bit then I left. (; It was fun but I was late for curfew because I didnt wanna leave him. It was a fantastic way to start off my October!! hmph. but I might be grounded. blah.haha.

Over all it was a good day. a kind of go with the flow day that ended very good. ha.
(: (: (: (:

ahhhh.eeeek!

ahhh,october is in less then a week. (:
this weather is fannnntastic!! yay!

Fun times (:

I feel like this "skanky-ness" that i am feeling right now is just making up for lost time. :P

Today is Brooke's birthday!!!!! (:


I dont know what to do,its a bad thing but i dont think i can stop it. I actually have no idea what is going on.hehehe. blah!
eeeeeeek! Game tomorrow!!

Plus side, I got a new phone!!

guard dumb

these freshmen girls are rediculos!! Blah!!
thanks brooke!

crazy week.not calming.

ohhh man!
This year is gonna be super emotional,i think.
It really already is! and its only been a week!!
UGH!!! lol.
sooo,much fun it will be though. riiiight.
I dont feel that i wanna yell at the screen so im not gonna go in detail but just know that its been crazy! hehe. :P

guard!

this week has been a tad bit emotional,this season might be very draining!
but as long as we get at least one trophie then it might be worth it(:

senior stuff.

got my hair cut today, highlighting it tonight.
SENIOR PICTURES TOMORROW!!! (:

senior year. :P

so, first day of kinda band camp.
It was just the section leaders and the freshman and all the guard...
But tomorrow,it will be everyone. I'm kinda pumped.
I like yellin at the guard cuz they can do it and it would be dumb if they just let it be lame. I hope i am not slave driving these girls... :P
hehe,anyways...
I am kinda pumped for this senior year, kinda. that and scared. ahhh. SENIOR YEAR!?!?! (:

hope.

got curtains in my room. YES!! (:
I can finally sleep in my room during the day without a blanket over my face!

(: Good weekend with the family comin up.

get it out of my mind!! :(

I am scared. Things maybe falling into place for others but I feel that the confusion has just started with me.
Maybe this year will be another defining one for Alanna.
Ya kno, like freshmen yr. Crap that might mean me getting into some trouble.
But maybe this will be a defining year for everyone and not just me. Maybe they will all come to their senses and stop being lame.
I have no clue.
I just know that right now, i feel sooooo out of the loop and lost and misled. and I dont even care if I am over reacting because its how I feel, and if my feelings are wrong then I will apologize. I will apologize for the way that I have and will treat people.
Maybe two weeks away wont change all that much and I can catch up real fast. Like guard work. Dang! But i am sure that they will think I have changed. Maybe I have, maybe I havent. I dont think I know for sure. If I have its probably not for the better.
I feel bitter. But i have nothing to be bitter about.
He wasnt really mine,claiming him as mine only made it real in my head. Him liking me was his way to people please and flirt,so it meant nothing. For not liking that about himself,he sure does it alot!! And that almost kiss was crap,"It would have felt right..." Yeah until it was time to go off to college or to church camp and forget all about me!
And when it comes down to it,,I truly think that he is the reason that I feel this constant distance between everyone. not totally. I know why I feel the distance between her. And ironically,its the girl that he was all flirty with.
I dont wanna hate him. I want to be his friend.
side note: I dislike the fair, it makes me want a boy to go ride rides with. :/
I say this and hope that it will happen. But i am gonna stop chasing guys.
Jessi,my guard instructor, said that,"if a guy likes you,he shouldnt have to tell you,his actions will." So, I am going to let a guys actions tell me that he likes me,and i am not going to over analyze everything to make it seem like he does..Cuz he probably doesnt and wont.

I feel that Brooke is the only one that will read this,maybe Jennifer. So,i am sorry for sounding lame and all over the place. I just needed to get this off of my mind. so yeah...thanks for reading this. and if you dont then its alright. <3

summer

Yeah, sooo summer is almost over.
The fair is soon and that is always like the last hoorrah! :/
hmmm,
my husband and I are kinda not so extreme. We are friends and we both still like each other. but I dont know.
Everyone is at camp now, so i should probably start writing those letters...
hehehe.

you

bother me. two weeks away will be alright with me..
I miss my husband already and I just saw him today. I hope he is around alot while he is in college.

but i dont think i will hold my breath for that one.

hehe. Husband.

so, I think that this summer is going by too fastly.
I miss the people from choir tour soooooooooooo much, and I am sad that I cant go to camp.
My Husband is for sure coming to visit everyone here on friday and I am stoked!!!
I just wish that I would feel better,because I have a lame sinus thing again and it sucks!!! AHHHH.

and speaking of my husband, I like he is a great husband! (:

choir tour great fun!

i like my husband.hehe
Choir tour ended today,that was sad. However,I had fun and I am glad that it was great fun the whole time! HEHE!!
I love those people and I thank God for them!!
(:

summer update

lately, its been alot of family, bc im going out of town with choir tour so mom has made me stay home to spend time with the fam.
however, quality time with the family has a key word! FAMILY! Not familys friends.
BLAH! /:
oh well...hehe

Choir tour on tuesday!! (:

I need to go to sleep cuz I have to babysit tomorrow,early,i think!

night.

summer!

So this summer is looking a little fast flowing...
I am working for a lady bc im her babysitter. She has two kids:a 3 yr old and a 9 yr old.
I have colorguard!(:
Choir tour! AHHH!

so it should be good, but im afraid that it will come to an end wayy tooo fastly,and i dont dig! :/

sick and amazing

I dont much like being sick..
especially during finals week. blah!
its the final stretch and my throat is dumb because it wont let me talk normal.

Yesterday was fun! I love those people!! (:
Daltons truck is amazing. and i laughed kinda alot.
Taco pocket!

no socks.

So I was just sitting here and i looked down and started moving my foot.
I forgot that I didnt have a sock on...haha.

Anyways,I am bored,i think.blah.
And I have a headache.for a really long time now.

I am done! well almost!

I AM DONE WITH CREDIT RECOVERY!!!!
i finished my last lesson today!(:
and now for the next four classes in here,i dont have to do anything!

College algebra is over with as well,just watchin movies in that class!
fashion design i dont have much to do.
economics is probably easy sailing till the end because he doesnt wanna do anything.
chemistry..i dont really know about.
english we still have to do stuff,blah!
drama we are just going to be disscussing plays and stuff.
ceramics is never hard!

I love the end of the year,everything gets real easy!(:

ahhhh,seniors!

sooo,seniors graduate in like less then and hr and I am kinda pumped and sad for them...lol
Wooot!!

new good song!

I havent been to church since I don’t remember when
Things were goin’ great ‘til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you can’t go hatin’ others who have done wrong to you
Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know where ever you are honey, I pray for you

I’m really glad I found my way to church
‘Cause I’m already feelin’ better and I thank God for the words
Yeah I’m goin’to take the high road
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
And do what the preacher told me to do
You keep messin’ up and I’ll keep prayin’ for you

I pray your tire blows out at 110
I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know whereever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car,
where ever you are honey, I pray for you.




This is a good song! ha.

not normal seatbelts! (:

I want these for in my vehicle.lol.

oh man.good weekend.

some where out there is an adorable little yorkie...
I havent met him at all, but my mother got him from a friend, and my brother was watching him and he just ran off. ha.
Kinda sad,but funny all at once.
I was gonna name him Pipata! ha.

But that happened at the end of my weekend, really nothing big happened this weekend. . .
Saw Letters to Juliet(good movie),
played the Wii,
watched carmel,
went to relay for like an hour,
slept at my sisters appartment,
played poker with my grandma,
babysat kids at the church,
went to church,
sonic with the family,
didnt sleep much,

sooooo yeah, all in all a good/mellow weekend. (: :P

I dont...

want to be a boring adult! :P

cryin over sr's :P

I feel as if they have all died,or fell off the face of the earth.
I know that is not true. I just feel like it. :P
I wanna cry. Tooo much as gone without being said, I dont really know what but I can feel it.
I dont kno. . .

I hope this weekend is as good as I anticipate it to be! mhm!

I will definately cry on tuesday, I dont know why, but I will,ugh!! lol.

fishie!

hahaha,i have a fish hook ear ring, and you dont! (;
hehe.

pipata!

hey,its been great!
We laugh so much and she gets mad...
pipata!!!!!! (:
Brooke,we are tooooo funny!
and melissa is grumpy!
((:

AHHHH! (:

I am sooooo almost done!!! (:
oh my goodness!
I have 5 more lessons, then all is good and i pass geometry!
WOOHOOOO!!!!

Seniors have their last day next friday and memories assembly was yesterday, I almost cried. oh dear. . . Next year is gonna be outragousssssss!!
I am pumped and scared.

AHHH! (:

cleansed!

I deleted alot of peoples numbers and a lame person off of my facebook, so all is good! lol.
I wanna be slap happy!

mix of emotions for this day.

love-for perry. He is adorable and makes my heart melt. lol. "bye love" (:
annoyance-for my feekin mother. She boggles my brain so darn much, I cant figure her out, which is totally bad considerin I have been in the same freaking house with her for 16 yrs! I dont get it. Plus the fight that she had with my father was so needed but dumb.
pain-for my father. He lets the things happen and I really believe that he knows that it is happening and he def isnt doin a thing about it. I kinda wish that my parents would divorce already. But you didnt hear that from me.
---I kinda honestly believe that they still do love each other. They have to. But I dont see why mom has to be that way. She cant have the best of both worlds,then again, i guess she can because her husband happens to be my father! hm. I do not want my parents to be how i will end up at all when i grow up! And I am glad that they dont read this. Mom has kinda invaded facebook, so i can talk about it on there.
Abandonment-because of my brother. He ditched for a friend and left me to be with the 'happy couple' that we call our parents. . . . . . . . . . .
Frustrated-with richard. Because he wont tell me what carl said.
Happiness-for melissa. She told me she was having a blast at prom so I was happy for her.(:
Jealousy- toward the people at prom,Kathy mostly. Because I was not there. I guess its whatever,I kinda just wished kathy would have worked out. but half of me is glad that I didnt have to worry about it at all.. I have my senior yr to make prom freaking amazing!
There was probably more but I dont really care that much...

The last like 4 hours of the day, I went up and down sooo much it was freakin ridiculous! I really just wanted to melt into my bed and never speak another word to anyone. Blah!

This winding down thing that i do in my room is good, so i dont think I will harm anyone. (:

talent show was lame for me.

I kinda horribly sucked it up at the talent show today.
didnt get my microphone passed to me, so i freaked out an didnt remember the words.
Blah!
I got off stage and cried...hm

WOO!

I am gonna go make me a shrek!!
(:
ps. talent show is today, i am beyonce!hahaha.

phone game

i am really good at this game on my phone.
i wanna beat it.lol
and i want a new phone! (:
but i guess its all good!

new friend

I dont want to complain about my life at all to this new friend that i made.
I dont want him to know what anything about me except the basics,unless he wants to know more, but I will try not to complain about my life to him,at all.
If i can ever have a full conversation with him then I can get to know him,but I dont know when or if that will actually happen.lol.
I did add him on facebook,and myspace.(:
He thinks I am a cutie.:)
I probably jinxed it by talkin about it,but still.

up to date

I am not divorced, just separated...
still have a fiancee.
and a boyfriend...that i added on facebook recently! (:

and even though she doesnt like me sayin it like this, it is what happened.
a friend and i broke up, well actually we are just on a break...i guess.

.....times!

i always have fun with melissa,
safe,cozy,funny,flirty,happy times just hanging out with random people and doing random things!!
(:

oh yeah!!!!!?

Kathy knows that he is kathy...
I told him.

lame naps

i did take a nap, and it was a rather long one..../:
sad day,poo.
I did have a lame day yesterday, until i started talkin to a new friend.
and i watched aladdin! and church!
(: Woop! Woop!

radically-mellow

i hate that i have a class kinda next to his on these days, because he is what i write about,which makes me seem like a stalking creeper!?
haha. But i only am a little bit, so yeah...
And another thing, I dont like geometry because it requires u to think logically and i am not a logical thinker! UGH...I dont like it and i am glad that i only have 10 more lessons. blah.
We have no school on friday!?!?! (:

Yesterday, was radical. I just had a mellowed out day. Wish jennifer could have come but i guess its cool that she didnt, :P
I was a cute poster child for a rebel skater chick yesterday!!
i wished someone would have been there with a camera,i was hott!
lol,
I also got my choir tour shirt yesterday and got stamps to send my choir tour stuff away. (:
I kinda wanna take a nap when i get home today, But not a long one...
k? k! COOL!!!! ha.

haha.yeah!

its friday, and i dont kno what i am doing this weekend!
lol,
but today, i think ima clean the house a lot so that i can suck up alittle before i kno what i am doing...haha
I kinda wanna hangout with jenni,but i doubt that will happen,sadly.
i came to a realization, that my husband isnt coming back to school next year so that we could be together! (; jk. but yupp!
Oh and my boyfriend has a girlfriend.
But i am sure my fiancee is still mine. lol.
I am such a creepy skank.lol,yupp!!
I should probably go look up pics of destiny's child, because thats who we are gonna be for the talent show. haha. Legends! Woo!!
k,guess ima go do that.

yeah..OH MY GOODNESS!!!!

So as I was walkin up the stairs to this class this morning,
something of super importance came into my thoughts...
IMA BE A SENIOR NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!!
and I am kinda excited about it.
I am gonna make senior year rather exciting for myself,because it needs to be or i will go Crazy! lol.
But duuuude, I cant wait till the seniors graduate this year, cuz then its only 2 more weeks and a summer break then I will be a SENIOR!!
Guard tryouts are today so that might have brought on the thought of my senior-ness.
I am gonna be the only senior on the guard, I kinda dont care who will hate me, as long as we arent as 'sucky' as last fall. it wasnt that bad but it coulda been better, so yeah...
I am soooo pumped!
Maybe to much, I need to keep my jr friends so that I can go to prom with them. plus i will def need a date, i dont wanna go with out a date actually.
WOOOOOOOT!!! My senior year is so gonna Rule!!!
Hopefully!!! (: AHhhhh....

maybe...

good day?
gonna perform at reed ms today!
(:

hmph.

nevermind, my husband isnt here....
Hmph.
I am beginning to think he doesnt like me!
:/

another laid back day!(:

Today, is gonna be a good day!
I think........ . . . .

Even though i woke up at 7:35 and didnt leave the house til like 7:52, I got to school on time and look rather adorable today. and later I am suppose to go with leah, and jennifer,and melissa and kathy to take their senior pics...kinda late but it still works!
Anyways, I hope thats fun and that it works out..If so, then today promises to be a good day, especically because....
MY HUSBAND IS HERE!!!! (:

jk, but he really is.
ha.

good,pretty good!

Yesterday was a good day,
nothing big has happened at all.
And i think i am ok with that... (:
We performed at pv yesterday and that was fun because i miss middle school. lol.
I saw everyone from there and i kinda missed them.
Only one person said something about my lip ring..haha,mrs.henne!

But today should be fun too.
Just because its friday, and i am going to tennebrae.
And its artwalk...woo!
I think i might go there after tennebrae. If I can.?!

But there is a sad thing about today,my husband isnt at school,lol. Good thing my outfit didnt work out for today, because I was gonna be adorable for that class but I guess that is what happens when you try and impress someone that shouldnt matter.lol.

Ok,bye now....

cake to church?!

The weather is lovely!!
I hope melissa does bring a cake for church, hmm! (:

I dont wanna change, i dont think i will...

I WANT CAKE!! (:

melissa's day of birth!

I feel like a skank today, I think im gonna change my shirt before church. A t-shirt would be less awkward to praise jesus in...lol
not that this outfit is bad, its jus tight....
Anyways, I turned in my own monologues, I didnt steal them from anywhere, I just wrote them. Woo,go me!! however,they were like two weeks late...oh well.
I saw my husband the other day, he asked me to fix his friends pant legs. ahhh.
I am such a stalker!? lame-o!
I painted my finger nails and toe nails yesterday, they are white.
oh,oh,oh,oh!!
TODAY IS MELISSA'S DAY OF BIRTH!!
----ima go make her a card! (:

I miss...

my husband! Its been like a month since i have actually seen him! lol.
(:
And I dont like that i have attractive friends because when it comes to boys, i feel forgotten and over looked...I dont dig. /:
:)
But yeah...

florida and such!

Had sooooooo much fun on florida,
but,
there was alot of drama and i am happy that its over....
(:

Championships were great!
We got 3rd!!!

and goodness knows what the rest of my life will bring! lol.

I think...

That because I am a freaking creeper, and that i have problems,
there is nothing i can really do about it...
It is me.
And half of the stuff i do, i dont think is thaaaat creepy, so why do i let it bother me, ya kno!?

Think positively about yourself.... ask God who made you to keep on remaking you.

~Norman Vincent Peale

And remember, no matter where you go, there you are.

~Confucius

It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere.

~Agnes Repplier

Your soul is all that you possess. Take it in hand and make something of it!

~Martin H. Fischer

We are sure to be losers when we quarrel with ourselves; it is civil war.

~Charles Caleb Colton

My heart filled with love, flowing over with joy, my own little drum that I like to march by!

~Gunda Fijnje-Nolan

Yeah, so...
Ps. Florida is in like a day and 3/4's! (:

oh wow!

hahaha.
so tomorrow is thursday,
and today is wednesday!!
I have a practice thing for florida today, and then church!

DUDE!!!!!
FLORIDA is like 3 days away!! (:
And oh boy, wont that be funnnnnnn!!!!!!!

But for today, i need to find some random monologues to pass off as my own. ?!?!

today!!!?

I gave blood,
(:
I saved 3 lifes, and didnt pass out!!
-----like i did last time...ha


I should be writing monologues but I am bored! :)

Florida is in....

A WEEK AND A DAY!!!

yup,a week and a day and i will be on a bus for 22 hrs, with the band kids! WOOOHOOO!!
I love it, because after the bus-more exciting stuff will happen! (:
like, the beach, and disneyland and boys, and hotels, and swimming pools, and friends!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am uber stoked and excited and ecstatic! AH!

and this weekend,
-camp sharon
- tan-tar-a
- church friends
- Saturdays game for Championships!!
- my love! jk,but kinda.
March is def a gooooooooooood month!!!!
(:

baby,october,Brownie!

i want a baby in october...
I love the month of october and a baby would be happy for me.
However,i am still a baby, so i cant have a baby yet!

I am kinda happy now cuz jennifer and i are gonna go get a brownie melt!
(:

New day on the 10th!

So, i am super excited for this weekend, and florida!
I kinda wish that a cute boy that i could latch onto for the duration of the trip was going, but other then that I really dont care! jk, i dont need a boy to have fun,
and besides, i can find one in florida!(:

I dig this guy,right. But again,he is outta my league so I will jus keep dreaming!
But he probably digs my friend.thats my life story!!
---what else is new......

Anyways, florida shall be a blast!! (:

yay!(:

I am super happy for jennifer right now!!!
She got her licence to drive now!!! (:
AHHHHH!! (:

"anger" on the 8th!

The Kathy thing is definitely done.

Why cant people just tell other people how they feel...
Like if ur annoyed with me, straight up tell me!!! Don't talk to someone else about it. Don't not text me back, or not answer my phone calls!! TELL ME!!!
I mean honestly, It wont hurt me. I wont crumble just cuz u said something to me about how loud i am being or how weird i am. I am not a feather, or a baby. I am an almost 17 year old, that gets yelled at for dumb stuff all the time,and can handle whatever you have to throw at her!
So if u think that u telling me to leave u alone is gonna bother me. then your waayyyyyyy full of yourself!!!
ps. you not telling me hurts more!! :/

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---------I feel better now.---------
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so, my plan was to write on here everyday this month...
But I got sick and just realized i will be in Florida for a week and probably wont be able to write on here....
so yeah!

Lookin Cute on the 2nd of March

So today, i think I look adorable!
I am wearing a cute outfit and i have makeup on and my glasses. Jus freaking adorable! hahaha.
But honestly I feel like CRAP! My throat hurts kinda really bad and I wanna take a nap..
I think thats what I shall do when I get home. (:
Then a little later, I would like to take my sleepy blankets to my mothers place of employment so that I may have her wash them! Cuz apparently they are "disgusting"!
who knew!?

Ps. I watched Zombieland on sunday, and it was a really funny and cute movie! (:

March First!

It doth be the first of march! (:

And believe it or not this month will be summer fun and exciting and full and eventful and soooo much more!
I dont even know....
I hope i meet a flordia boy! (;

We shall just wait to see what this lovely month brings me....?!

(: good day...and weekend!?

i still dont have a prom date,
I still havent had a full conversation with Kathy in person really either, so oh well....I think i might text her...right now!

This weekend is really busy for alanna.
I have one act-performances and a colorguard competition! (:
Fun, but busy...

hahahaha, i think i am a little slap happy today. Probably because its FRIDAY!! (:

Someone wrote on my formspring that they knew who liked me...it was funny cuz i went with it...(: lol.

I just read a poem of dakotahs, Its pretty freaking cool!

Update on leaving the weirdness,

also, update on my weirdness:
I have stopped myself from telling 2 different people that i had a dream about them.
So that is monumental for me....
I hope i can stop being so weird.

aslkdjf

Apparently asldkjf is a word on urban dictionary...
It means to waste time. or a Time Waster!
hahaha. thats so what i need.

I am really bored, and kinda mad cuz of my boredom. I dont kno what to do.
But i guess there is really alot of homework and crap i could do, but blah!

I want a pen pal.and a bf. oh poo!

kathy,no more!

kathy is a dud, and i am out,

I dont think that will ever happen so i quit before i really hurt myself.
But thats possibly too late. . . . .


I wish i could write like Dakotah because i feel so many emotions right now, and i jus want to pump out the bestest peom ever, but it would suck cuz I cant write.

Blah, I think that word is over played in my world.



PS. I am a freak and i kno it. I am working on it..
How do u stop being something u didnt kno u were?

body in a box

btw, i think i want to be cremmated because of that song....

body in a box

so, i like city and colour, kinda aton!

hmm,today, i dont wanna talk to the mean teacher,
She will jus be a butt,no matter what i say to her.
so i am gonna listen to music and knit without her bothering me...(:


Good Song! >>>>>>>>>>>


There's a funeral procession on the highway,
Traffic screeches to a halt.
There's people searching for a better way,
To live their lives.
Johnny lived a good life, you'll hear them say
As tears of sadness soak the ground.
The reaper crept in, took his breath away,
In the middle of the night.

[Chorus:]
We celebrate the lives of the dead,
It's like a man's best party, only happens when he dies.
We gather 'round to pay our respects,
While their souls are still searching for the light,
Searching for the light.

So please don't come to me on my dying day,
Just let me go in peace.
With all the things that I forgot to say,
Racing through my mind.
And don't you bury me six feet under ground,
Just burn my body in a box.
And let my ashes blow with the wind,
Out into the night sky.

[Chorus]

w/e

i am angry...

This teacher is a turd!

:/

kathy,kathy,kathy! :/

I am a creep...

I dont think kathy will be my prom date. oh well...
I think the snow might need to stop falling for awhile, and thats something coming from me...
I love the snow!!!
I cant wait for florida! WOO!
I kinda wish Kathy was going to Flordia, but whateve!
(:
I dont need her to have fun!!

NOPE,NOPE,NOPE!
I think i like guys tooo much!:/

u?

short ones dont give much away, i like that.

I wanna go to prom, Melissa needs someone to go with.
I think it would be uber fun!!
I jus need a date,
Kathy or tabitha...no, they arent girls..
Those are "nicknames", code names if u will that we have given the two boys that could possibly hopefully be my prom date...(:
I would love that! either one of them honestly.

or anyone else? PROM?!
(:

short ones

Alot has happened,
and i am def not going to explain everything....
I am jus glad to have a class that comes to the computer lab,
so i can write on here...

But i dont think i am gonna write really long entries, short ones seem good right now.

so bye,

(:

oh dear!!!
It has been a while,
hi.
hello.
hey.

bye now!!